So ya here I am skyping and blogging since I know I haven't really posted a real blog entry in awhile,usually they're like little updates on usual activities on my life. xD

I am just feeling a bit down lately, just confused and probably shouldn't be feeling this way...especially since if it's toward a guy? :l
I just feel the more I think about it the more I feel that he doesn't like me and feeling that I can't really compare up. Just sad stuff like that...I don't know I really like him but *sigh* I guess I can't force anything right? I don't want to ruin anything towards the friendship...but I just keep thinking ugh I'm not good enough or pretty enough etc. I feel bad that I even think those thoughts but they are just my usual insecurities. I'm personally too shy to discuss anything like that with him...and I unno he won't visit me...so maybe not a good sign? or I'm doing something wrong but UGH I'm sick and tired of feeling like I'm not doing the right things or lacking somehow..

I like him alot but maybe I find myself falling for him too fast and too hard.
Oh well I'll take things slow keep it on a friendly note.

I shall post later :)